Porn Ultimatum (from David)

David sent me this blog post. It is dated January 6, 2010.

January 9, 2010 marks one year of abstinence from all pornography and one year of recovery. This is something for which I am truly grateful. Pornography was part of my life since I was 9 years old. It seemed to be omnipresent. It was like a drug. I used it to soothe myself, to escape and to avoid the shame and guilt that was part of an endless cycle of acting out and remorse.

I lost a great deal as I pursued my addiction for 34 years. I lost my innocence, my first marriage and ultimately my physical freedom. But as I'm finding everyday, God has a plan. Because I finally hit bottom and became broken, I have experienced spiritual and emotional freedom I have never known. I am so grateful to have the opportunity to build a relationship with Christ, my wife and family and friends. True relationships built on trust, faith and honesty. And to have a relationship with myself. To finally know who I am and why I am.

I could not have reached this milestone without the help and support of so many; God, Lisa, Donna Peaslee, Ricky Mill, 12-step friends, group mates, and family and friends. May God bless you all. Thank you for an amazing year of grace and love.

God bless,
David