Stinking Thinking (from David)

David sent me this blog post. It is dated December 20, 2009.

David writes:

Addiction is cunning, baffling and powerful. I was just laying in my bunk this morning and for some reason thoughts of pornography started dancing in my head. It is amazing how it just sits and waits for a vulnerable moment and then grabs you. I have no idea why it picked this morning, but it was definitely there. I fought it as I have in the past. I prayed the Serenity Prayer and tried to focus on something positive. When that didn't seem to do the trick I decided to just try to go to sleep. That worked. I fell asleep and woke up with a refreshed mind and no thoughts of pornography.

These reminders aren't fun, but they are important in reminding us we are dealing with a patient addiction. It just sits and waits hoping we become complacent and lazy in our program. Knowing that keeps me motivated to stay connected to God, people in the program and with my own feelings.

We are given a daily reprieve from our addiction in return for our daily commitment to recovery. What we do each day determines if we've built up our defenses against a cunning, baffling and powerful addiction. I'm in this to win. Thank God for the weapons to fight to a victory.

God bless,
David