Fear vs. Faith (from David)

David sent me this blog post. It is dated December 14, 2009.

David writes:

I am now in general population at a jail awaiting transfer to a federal facility in the next few weeks or so. I share one large room, they call it an Open Bay, with about 40 other guys of all races, backgrounds, crimes and demeanors. Most of our block is laid back, older guys just doing their time and avoiding trouble. But it always seems there is some underlying tension boiling just below the surface. At first I was fearful and just kept to myself. But then decided that I couldn't live like that and have a "full" life in jail. I had to take a leap of faith and try to experience and contribute to our "society". Now I'm talking to folks, playing games, attending Bible services and just being part-of.

Out in society I would regularly hide out and choose not to participate for fear people would see through my lies and call me on it. I didn't have faith in anything or anybody much less God or myself. Again, even though I am physically confined, I'm growing and experiencing things that are helping me be a deeper human, better husband and follower of God. Give faith a chance. Take it out for a walk sometime.

God bless,
David