A Look Back (from David)

David sent me this blog post. It is dated October 13, 2009.

David writes:

This week I was blessed to reach my nine month sobriety anniversary in my recovery from sex addiction. I take no credit for myself. Only through the grace of God and the support and influence of my wife, Dr. Donna Peaslee, and all the group members at CTSD, have I been able to string together 270 days of abstinence and sobriety.

What makes this particularly remarkable for me is that it is the first time since I was 9 years old that I have been free of any mind-altering drug or behavior for more than a few days. I've been sober from drugs and alcohol for 24+ years, but I have always acted out on my pornography addiction so for 34 years my mind, body, and soul have been conditioned to make myself feel better, and OK with who I am through mind-altering behavior. It is just short of a miracle that I am sober today. And the gifts continue, even as I sit in jail. It would have been easy to use this time as an excuse to turn to compulsive masturbation and fantasy to escape this world that I now face. But through my higher power - God - I've been granted the courage, serenity, and wisdom to stay sober one day at a time. If I can do it, anybody can.

God bless,
David