Women struggle with pornography too.

First things first, I’d like to take this time to thank David and Lisa for allowing me to contribute to this blog. This blog is a great way to carry the message to those that are suffering from the effects of pornography addiction.

My name is Linda; I am a woman that struggles with sex addiction. Like many sex addicts, and like David, I was sexually abused as a child. As a teenager and through my 20’s I medicated myself with alcohol, pornography, sexual spanking, and masturbation all of which has progressed through the years. I can remember coming home from my job as a computer programmer and spend the next several hours sitting in front of my computer masturbating to pornography and drinking myself to oblivion. I did this everyday for years. I had everything I wanted a good job and a nice place to live but inside I was dying. Like many people, I have been in and out of therapy for years trying to find someone that will fix me. I came to a breaking point over seven years ago, I got sober from alcohol, but continued to act out sexually still looking for the right combination to not have to feel my feelings. Four years ago I went back into therapy because I was suicidal. It took me 3 years of hearing of other people’s addiction to pornography before I could admit mine. My life is so much different than it used to be – I have a life today. I am learning to feel my feelings instead of acting out to numb them out.

There is life beyond pornography. If you think that maybe you have a problem – get some help. You are not alone.