Good Grief

Recovery from any addiction is a journey, not a destination. Sometimes that journey takes you down flat roads with scenic views and no traffic. Other times you're traversing hairpin turns, blinde curves and sheer cliff walls. At this time in my recovery I'm on the latter road. This is definitely uncharted territory for me.

I've mentioned before about my inexperience with feelings and expressing them in a healthy way. I've stuffed them under decades of drugs, alcohol, pornography, food and fantasy. With all that we are experiencing right now it is like an avalanche of feelings. Lisa and I are sad, scared, angry, resentful, grateful, joyful, hopeless and hopeful all at the same time. We've basically agreed to cry at least once each day to help release these feelings in a healthy way, rather than take it out on each other. We're using WORDS as well to talk about our feelings. Actually saying, "I'm sad that I'm going to lose you," or "I'm angry at what you did."

Too bad they don't make a GPS that can help you navigate recovery. But then again, there are a lot of map "programs" out there, 12-steps, therapy, Christ, etc., that are proven to get you where you need to go.

God bless,
David