How did I end up here?

Many folks are aware of my situation. The sad reality is I'm being charged with receipt of child pornography and facing up to eight years in federal prison. The good news is that through all of this I've had some real miracles happen in my life. For the first time in more than 37 years I'm actually completely sober from any addictive and self-destructive behaviors, my wife and I are more connected than we have ever been, I have no more secrets and most importantly, I have a true relationship with Christ.

I'm not sure where this story will end up, but I want to tell it to try to help others avoid our fate, reduce the demand for child pornography and help shine a light on something that carries so much shame and guilt that people choose to stay sick rather than get help. That must change.

I hope this will be a vehicle for sharing information around resources for people like me as well as those who have been victimized. Many see viewing child pornography as a victimless crime. In my recovery, I have met these victims face to face and discovered the true toll this activity takes on the children involved. If I can help there be one less child abused in this way, I will consider this outreach a success.

Lisa and I have been praying every day for guidance on whether going public is the right thing to do for us, our families and the public. I feel compelled that God is directing us down this path. Please pray for us and those hearing this message, that they take the opportunity to get help before they do direct harm to a child or end up facing five to twenty years in prison. The toll this crime takes on everyone is huge. From the victims to the families of the perpetrator, it sends a firestorm through their lives. My prayer is that through our experiences, and our relationship with Jesus Christ, we can make a difference.

God Bless